GACKT Official Blog update. Translation below:

Today, for the first time in awhile, I had a power lunch.
I’m often invited for power lunches in KL.
It’s when you talk about business while having lunch but
I basically don’t eat lunch.

Because of that, the act of entering a restaurant in the daytime itself
feels exceptionally abnormal for me.

Since morning,
maybe because I’m feeling weird about preparing for this,
but I can’t pick my clothes at all.
Feeling like something is wrong in my heart like this is interesting.

When I decide on my outfit in the morning, I’ll know well what my mental state is.
When my mental state is stable, I can quickly decide what to wear as well.

This isn’t about whether it’s actually decided or not,
instead, being able to decide for yourself means that your state of mind is good.

In other words,
changing your clothes over and over again without being able to decide
does not mean that your clothes or coordination is bad to start with,
instead, it’s an issue with your mental state for that day, where you’re bothered by even the smallest detail.

In such instances,
there’s also a need to drink tea and calm down but
if I drank tea in such a state, it would feel exceptionally unpalatable too,
and because I’ll react to any bad balance in the smallest of flavours that I normally won’t be bothered with, so it’ll be troublesome.
Everyday, many people visit a Chinese restaurant
in a big hotel to enjoy Dim Sum.
Only in a place like KL, a city established by a gathering of a mix of races, can you see this Chinese culture in many places.

I like having Dim Sum but
in the past, I wanted to have it at night no matter what,
and I did go around at night looking for a place where I can have it,
but for some reason, it’s been a custom since the past that Dim Sum is for daytime, so it couldn’t be found anywhere.

Furthermore,
if I have Dim Sum in the day, I end up feeling sad because I have to skip dinner at night.

While having delicious Dim Sum,
conversations about various new businesses progressed.
Such precious communication is really common among the Chinese.

As the meal concluded, so did talk about work.
After that,
I had time, so I went to a cafe and did my work while relaxing.
Today, there aren’t many people in the cafe.
Maybe this is the time when it’s empty.

I thought of going shopping but the Dolce & Gabbana
and Armani that was in this mall has moved out.

In other words, I’ve lost all reason to step into this mall.
Later,
I should go and look for a new Bluetooth earphone…
I thought, forcibly trying to find a reason to go in.

While relaxing and having tea for around 2 hours, I slowly finished work.
Since I’ve finally finished work, I started to walk around for a bit but
Christmas has already started drifting into the city.

However,
there’s an indescribably odd feeling having Christmas in such a hot country.
I’ve wondered about why Christmas is such a big affair in cold countries but
I suppose in a cold country, the feeling of aversion to the cold
along with the seasonal feeling of loss
and the euphoria of celebrating Christmas
match each other beautifully after all.

The feeling of aversion to the days that grow steadily colder.
The feeling of loss that somehow comes with the end of the year.
And the euphoria as Christmas approaches.
This exquisite balance is recognised as a precious factor
in experiencing December, the last month of the year.

As expected,
it feels like Christmas is more exciting in a colder season.
The colder it gets,
that contrast between a Christmas tree and breathing out a sigh
is exquisitely matching.

Originally,
I though that I didn’t want it to become any colder than thus but
when it starts to snow, I feel happy for some reason.
This is also another really strange thing.

On this day,
because I’ll be working in Osaka the next day,
I thought of flying in on an overnight flight
and I realised that it would be the first time that I’m flying into Osaka from overseas.

Spending an hour around the airport, I didn’t really see much people around even as I look around me.
Not bad.
It feels lonely too but I don’t hate this feeling of a lack of crowd
from having no one around.

Even so,
you could say that there isn’t a single person whichever floor I go to.
It feels exceptionally lonely in an empty airport.

I took my time walking to the departure gate but
I discovered the weird sight of a sickening amount of people gathered specifically at the departure gate.
Then,
departure was even delayed by an impressive hour.
Maybe because it’s an overnight flight, most of the passengers slept in their chairs.
If there wasn’t this delay, I would’ve thought that a flight to Kansai airport is pretty good.
We left in the middle of the night, and arrived in the day.

It was nice to slowly depart from KL
and be able to start working just as I arrive.
This is good.

From next time onward, maybe
I’ll come in from Osaka every time…
Right then,

it’s about time to depart
and today has been a long day.
Until next time.

Source: GACKT Blog

Translation: GACKT ITALIA Team

Translation © GACKT ITALIA